Haven't written here but I just felt like leaving a quick note:
I've switched my weekly estradiol dosage from 5mg/7days to 6mg/7days. 2 weeks ago I botched an injection and underdosed a bit, and I felt awful + felt the effects of testosterone production, so I don't like the idea that I'm teetering right on the edge of testosterone suppression.
Also had a bit of a breakdown last night while trying to sleep, I want to look convincingly female so badly but it feels hopeless. My upper torso, my waist, my hips, my face. My age.
Today I feel better, if a litle dulled out and loosely relaxed, after letting all that out. I also feel a little fuzzy and nice, maybe it's the increased dosage.

Addendum:
I want to look and act female so fucking badly. FUCK. But all I'll ever be is a LARPing non-binary man.

Oh yeah I also wrote this on /lgbt/ today:
"Before transition I couldn't even entertain the idea of being in a relationship with a woman, only men.
Now, after starting, I'm warming up a lot to having a female partner.
I feel like I just didn't like the idea of being a guy with a girlfriend, but being a girl with a girlfriend sounds pretty nice.
Too bad all 3 cis-F chasers are taken and probably like 5 years younger at the least. I guess I'll just end up being either a transbian or straight, depending on who I find first.
Transbian wouldn't even be bad either, it'd be the best of both worlds (MM and FF).
Maybe I'm just faggotsexual"